Tomorrow is a way of life

The first month of the new year (new decade for more drama) is almost over, so I believe the time is right for an introspection session. I’ll go first, shall I?

I had a larger list of resolutions this year than normal. Some were the constants, the ones I’ve been taking for the last couple of years, the “I shal stop biting nails”, “I shall go to gym regularly”.... (yawn!). Some were relatively new. And the others I don’t even remember. But one thing is gonna be different this year. I am going to track my progress in the upkeep (maybe that is not the word I am looking for) of my resolutions with the goal to so publicly embarrass myself that I actually try sticking to them, for a change. So here goes,

Resolutions I took:

1. I shall not bite my nails
2. I shall go to gym regularly and actually work out
3. I shall eat regularly and on time and healthy food. (Note to self: Coffee is NOT healthy food)
4. I shall maintain proper accounts of my expenses
5. I shall organize my time better and stop whining about my lack of time for a social life
6. I shall stop whining in general. Period.
7. I will get over certain people. I will take an effort to maintain my relationships but only the ones worth maintaining. This this person out. That that person in!
8. I shall........(this is the point where my selective amnesia sets in. So i am just going to stick to 7 resolutions for now) 

Progress

1. I am not even gonna try to chart the progress of this one. People who have been with me long enough know how this resolution usually advances as the year goes by.
2. I tried. I genuinely tried. I went for all of 2 days. Now I just don’t have time. Which is probably violating resolution no.5 but I will work it out. I will! I swear!
3. Ditto. I will. Soon.
4. I’d almost forgot about this one until I went to visit a friend today and he was working out his expenses in an Excel sheet. Apparently, its a habit he picked up in his undergrad and has been doing it for the last 5 years. Seriously! It bowled me over for a second. “But you’re a guy!” I almost went (and we all know guys are the more irresponsible sex), but I stopped myself in time to avoid an argument. God, I am so gonna follow his example and stop relying on just Bank of America’s monthly statement to know what I am spending on. I so so am! If a guy can do it, so can I.
5. Yeah well, I did make some progress on this front. Enrolled myself for a couple of extra curricular activities. I am slipping back into my bad habits though.
6. Hmmm..... What was that again?
7. As to this, its slow progress but hey its progress. This this people slowly going out.

As you can see, progress is non-existent (almost) but writing is usually good for me so i hope I do a better job this month.

Meanwhile, life’s been fun. Its my favourite-est time of the year. Back home, this was the time I usually went cultural hopping. It would start with Saarang and culminate in Instincts. This was the time of the year I practically lived the rest of the year for. I’d almost forgotten how it used to feel until I read this. That brought back all the old memories. I miss that. I missed it so much that i went and got myself elected the Secretary of the Engineering Grad Students Association in my University. Ah! Finally some semblance of a life! The saddest part of Grad Life is that, for most of us, this is the first time we are exposed to so so sooo many activities on campus. There is so much variety in the list of possible things you can do in the University but unfortunately you neither have the time or the energy to do any of them. It is like the joke about hell where you have awesome food right in front of you but you cant eat coz the ladles are too large (if you haven’t heard of this one, well, Google is God!). I so want to join the hip hop club, the photography club, the university newspaper, the swimming team and a whole lot more. Maybe before I graduate I’ll actually do a couple of things on that list. *Fingers crossed*

I am taking reduced courseload this quarter. I want to take life a little bit slower. Doesnt seem to be helping even a bit. I am still as rushed as before, if not worse. This internship search is bugging. No one warned me it would be such a pisser. I cant believe I actually thought my life was set after I finished with my GRE. My troubles had only just started! Ah what I wouldn’t give right now for a rich US maapilai! Anyway I cant believe getting a fricking job is so fricking hard. I miss Anna University and SSN! I miss campus placements! I miss walking around like placement was my birth right! In the immortal words of Calvin, “Why should I have to work for everything?! It's like saying I don't deserve it! “

The problem with having too much time and no energy to cram any more material in your head is that you ending up just lying in your bed and thinking. Now ordinarily that wouldn’t be a problem but a lot of times you start thinking of the decisions you made and the past and the present and the gaping hole that is the future. For the last 2 weeks I have been on a weird nostalgia trip. And its not just me. Maya called to ask if she probably should have talked to ‘that girl’ in 12^th std. And maybe she should have listened to ‘that guy’ in college. So yay, I am not the only freak in town who’s thinking of the past. And its kinda a weird time for all of us coz this is the month of my friend’s second year death anniversary. So I guess it has been a little tough for all of us.

My profile picture on FB got more than a 50 likes! Ha, I have reached the next level in FB Fame. I am awesome, I am popular, I am a star! The guy I had a crush on in 12^th standard actually pinged me to say I was looking good. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

Must return to internship search. Rest soon!