Death has a way of changing your priorities in life. What seemed so important a few days back now seems meaningless. Things you normally overlook, people whom you don’t usually give a second glance to, now overtake your life. Everyday activities seem so inconsequential. Making small talk, filling up awkward silence, speaking just to stop yourself from thinking seems to be all that you ever do. And there are those moments of introspection. Those rushes of memories you couldn’t stop. Those sudden recollections sparked off by an odd song, an old name in a phonebook, photographs. Forgotten words, broken promises, fresh guilt. And doubts. The nights spent asking yourself ‘what if…..?’. The days of torturing yourself with ‘maybe’. Maybe if he’d worn a helmet….. maybe if she’d gone for a checkup earlier….. maybe if he’d quit smoking…. Maybe if I’d had the sense to call earlier….. Numb todays, hollow tomorrows. And then it all fades away.
Life is short. Life is fragile. One small mistake, one wrong judgement and it could all be over. Sometimes you’re the windshield. Sometimes you’re the bug.Why take the risk? Why put off till tomorrow? Why fight when you don’t mean to? Why live for glass images? Who cares what people think? Who cares if people may not agree with you? They are but illusions. An existence for appearance’s sake?
Life is happiness. Why should it be anything else?
Sometimes you just need the night
To realize the value of the day
Sometimes you just need some setbacks
That victory would taste sweeter
A few tears
So smiles seem miracles
Sometimes you just need death
To recognize the beauty of life.
8 comments:
ha! all your orkut last names and stat msgs put together! :)
but yeah, i see what u mean.. not a day goes by when i dont ask myself the "what if" question and feel bitter about it..
u noe wat i feel bitter bout.... that i ignored him, that i didnt rep 2 his msgs when he was wid us.
de whole school was thr 4 him on sunday. wats de pt??? when u aren't thr 4 a person when he was alive, wats de diff whether u're thr or not after hez gone???
I dunno if this is gonna offend sensitive ppl.
But life is always long and waiting to be lived. Just that most of us never realize that. We are taught that life is short and that instills in us the constant fear of death, the urge to evade the inevitable. Some do better than that and live life without principles and rules. Ppl drive fast not knowing life is just once and there is much more to see. Ppl never understand life because they are taught to fear death or to brave death. Life is long and waiting to be lived. Live it fully and all by yourself and you'll c death never comes to u when U ARE ALIVE!
wat guarantee s thr that i wont get hit by a bus 2moro? or that i wont contract some fatal incurable disease? or i wont fall into a pool of water wid a live wire in t on gandhi jayanti? nothing. whether u r young n hv a whole life ahead of u or u dont care bout life n want 2 get t over wid, u're gonna die all de same. call t fate or call t chaos theory, t doesn't change anything. but i agree wid u on de fact that there's so much 2 c n life swaiting 2 b lived. n how long or short life really s, s relative. if ppl r scared bout death, its coz they cant understand t. its coz v cant c wat comes after. like being afraid of de dark. u're scared coz u dunno wat 2 expect
i know divs.. i really really wish i'd been nicer to him too.. thats the thing i hate abt death sometimes.. it makes me guilty for all the little things.. makes me want to apologize..makes me feel helpless.
death sure has its way of changing our perspective illogically..
and the 'wat if' is more pronounced that ever..
i noe. i read ur blog too. it'll get better ani. i hope. meanwhile i'm stuck in de present talking philosophy bout life n death n quoting poetry 2 convince myself it'd get better. watever....
n mayb this s for de better. life wud get boring if v lived indefinitely. like thalla brad pit in troy so very rightly said...."everything s more beautiful coz v r doomed".
shit i'm starting off again....:(
"Numb todays, hollow tomorrows. And then it all fades away"
VERY beautifully said!! what phenomenal blog!!(reading it for the first time =/) hell yeah,i'm SO completely taken aback!
ur blog is such a reviver! =)
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